I don’t think anyone needs me in their life
other than my family
In the first place, i don’t even think i’m supposed to be in this family.
Things are meant to fall apart.
But i guess everything collapse in my world?
Nights when i got nobody to talk to? nights when my phone didn’t receive a single text/call
I hate going to school
i hate the fact that i have to wear that smile and say that i’m fine cheerfully
I do not want to lie to my friends
H said that i have a tendency to keep everything to myself
All my twitter followers just said i’m so emo nemo
I’m sorry
I’m really sorry
I have huge difficulties opening up to someone.
I insist on staying strong on the outside
I’m left with nothing.
Should i be happy that i have nothing to lose?
Or
should i be angry over the fact that i cause all these with my two hands
So what if i’m a social butterfly in school?
I still find myself friendless when outside school hours
I’m very scared
I don’t want to go through these all over again
When i lose my best friend
I got nobody to seek
I’m socially awkward outside school
ah……
why am i so useless.
